Ya, you wan to leave a memory of me at least.

When a person is no longer around, whatever that could question will only be found by the things he/she left behind. 

When a person has left, he/she will never return.

Yet why, are you making things like you have to wait for me to leave this place, before you could convince yourself that i'm truely gone and not coming back.. before crying and fretting over how stupid you are.

I simply watched you despair in these thoughts all this while and sense the confusion in you.

What for do i keep a diary?

Do they matter to you if they were meant to hurt you? Come'on it hurts you...

Juz at least know that, you might be better off not knowing maybe. Somehow you got pissed off over the Xiiao Qian's issue, how can i not know?

I already told you, like you i believe in 'fate' Whereby it sees who's the last 1. But those are only in shows or movies, maybe we juz watched too much of those. What if, we really really missed each other at that point in time? Are we gonna regret the whole life or spend it waiting for each other, till death separates us from the search for each other??

I know i'm love sick. I know it myself. You know the feelings raging, me too. =( You juz gave me no reason to kiss you. You make me feel like the whole world's warmth has been lited with your smile, that is why, your smile is beautiful. 

Today reminds me of Sunday, unfortunately, it's not. 

Ytd went Sentosa, strangely, it was not as crowded as it was. Surprisingly i really expected more chio bu's and more handsome hunks, but nothing. Pretty gal got la, but all cmi. xP ( like if they pretty then how they cmi ) oh well, CS/SM/MD were sun tanning, so the end result is sun burned. =.- After that had dinner at Astons and they went to watch high school musical 3. I running short of cash, give it a miss. Yawnxz, i only wanna watch "butterfly lovers" or "max payne". Ever since you left, have i ever tried watching a movie with others?? =(

Today jiu band lors. Manage to get grayson down finally, but seems like he is 1/5 of guo xiong only. Somehow guo xiong is really PRO. Not juz pro itself, He's humble and kind, better than jeremy. =.- Sista came too with Tammy and you manage to get Esther down. Woahs, like we got a whole family liddat. Kinda nice when it comes to closing, at least it's not me you and ZQ again. 

Thanks so much for being there. But i was really tired today. I barely was opening my eyes during the game. It juz doesn't feel right. I sense your weird weird feelings there. Maybe it was wrong to bring you. I dunno, but i know is that, they will never xian qi you, becoz we don't. You are a nice girl, not only the boys know, Jac and Jiayu knows that too. Juz know that being with you has never been an excuse or what, i love you.

But the way that things are now puts my love to a restrain. I hope you understand. I don't mean to hurt you. Sorry. No matter how many should i scribble here or anywhere else. Is not enough.

Sha dan, dun always wait so late with me. I appreciate it, but you're tired. =(

Missing you deeply, even if it's only a few hours.

Love is complicated.

Hope u decipher the message i gave you. Pls don't, if you dun wan to cry. I dunno. I juz feel miserable, i tink your heart also.

& pls, dun chose another gal for me. It's like giving me a plate of food which i dun really crave.