Friday Night, whereby everyone will be gone. Somehow gone out to enjoy themselves and stuff liddat. Feels weird somehow. Maybe i'm juz tired. =X

Perharps i'm too exhuasted or asking too much of myself suddenly..

The reason why i'm lost.. feeling unhappy and upable to seem to catch things, is probably becoz of that? I really dunno sia.

Juz all the time, this vision was apparently in my mind for quite some time. I, holding a sword in my hands, wearing a long hood and entirely black outfit, juz like kamui in Tsubasa. Suddenly a mysterious stranger rushes towards me with a sword of green glow. The mighty slash of the sword i blocked, but i was impacted by the slash itself. Quickly recovering myself, i gathered my strength and channel them into the follow up attack. With a quick step, i flickered over the mysterious stranger and deals the same blow. Both swords clash with a heavy bang.. My purplish aura not willing to give up to the faint green glow.... it shined more brightly once more, my entire strength of my body seems to vanish and into the clash..

But what happens after that is a unknowned. Is it that the mysterious stranger is the future? Or that, it is too tough and should be remained defeated for the moment. There is no point battling fate isn't it? What holds in the future in the first place??

Gn seems to be pissed at xin, while in office, things seem to happen in an contary way. It juz like a child's play. Instead of juz the usual "i don't friend you le", silent play comes into mind. Let me juz finish up the office thing. Then next comes war. Somehow i don't understand, is what i have been told that no place could ever not have office politics, even if it's kinda run down?? hardwork VS talents. I really wonder, the thing that makes life so interesting is the surprises. The few days of it have made me kinda breath un catchable. Meow?

There is no break for the race of time though. It always have been liddat. This is maybe where a new phase of life begins. While all the happening, the evolvotion of friends too. Couples are separating, friends are losing touch or couples getting together, friends getting back to each other... everything is happening like spontaneous. Or maybe we haven't been noticing it all along.

Noticing. it's juz a matter of heart vs mind too right? That day you struck my mind. Perharps it's in a whirl becoz of it. Logic VS heart. I know i m a virgo.. logic tends to be abit off, becoz virgo's 6th sense are kinda incredible and they are perfectionist. I noticed i'm partly like that, even if it was not part of what i was suppose to be. I told myself " if u want to do something, do it the best". That is why when i tidy something i clean up to everything. But the best part.. somehow i don't know what is e 'best' too for certain things =( like for you.

I really got no comments for logic. I juz feel thoughts are whirling in my mind like a tornado, or rather a sand storm. All my paths are covered by the sand. Everything is flying around.. i really dunno what is happening inside. When i grab, it's sand and it's blinded me too. Can i get this trapped feeling out? Not feeling helpless though, i juz wonder, i'm bluffing myself the heart is okie? Or that.. it's becoz today is that day..

Bless you Bin Mei.
5 years have passed since you departed.
Everything has changed.
But the one thing that has never changed always, is that you're my beloved junior.
=) Rest In Peace.
I know the rest of the seniors will think the same way too.

I could not help recall the day, that very day i went bowling. I was thinking it was near her house. I was dam dumb. It was at Mandai instead i guess. I did not accompany her to her last. Most of the ppl will probably think i'm such a letdown senior. Yawnxz.. that's a fact i'll never b able to escape. I had 2 strikes that day. Is it beginner's luck? or that i'm juz plain lucky? Or.. it was.. a sign or an omen. My strikes have never hit 2 at anytime after that..

Which is why, i have this childish thinking that anything could go wrong. i don't blame u my batch de, to tell me in such a inappropriate way. That day, jialin, i tink you juz came to me and said" bin mei ahem* "Or maybe, in another way, it was better not to go. I juz could break down then..

Okie, andy stop. I shall not say further. If not, jiu rain le. I'm tired, there's piano tomorrow. I'm hungry too, it's only 12.35 am. I'm early today isn't it? =X was with xin and sm at ps juz now. Maybe i juz crave for nothing. Yawnxz. shall juz go sleep. I'm tired...

dun care about anything le, weekends ar to unwind. ~~~ =X Meow.

I don't wan you to look back if should 1 day i leave this world.
Pneumothorax isn't something too serious but not too minor too. I juz scared. =X
That is why, i dunno if i'm hurting u still or not. sorry.