I didn't go for piano lesson ytd.
It's 9.05 pm, there's still 1 dreaded hour. I look like a idiot.
Waiting for the time to pass and every second seemed to drag. It seems like every second took away 1 drop of my blood, and caused a inch of pain into my heart.
I feel horrible and with all the noise from the television, i really wished it could b silent, to rot.

I had the best night which i slept so soundly for so many months.
But, tonight, i had the worst night, whereby i had to wait for the time to pass.
Why don't i go to sleep.. even if i did, i probably will be asleep only by 12 midnight =(

I really don't understand you sometimes. I really really dunno.
We've been quarrelling ever since you mentioned the thing. I m afraid.. afraid to lose you.
On the other hand, you didn't seem to realise how important you were to me.
Things that have meaning to me died when you left.

My room is in a big mess. I tink i can juz burn it all away with juz a small flame. I thought to myself on the way back, whatever is important to me now? I can juz throw every single thing away.. what really matters any more??

I know it sounds sucidal, but i'm not. Won't sucide. I promised all right? Juz feeling really sian diaox. I really dunno why. It's been 4 months le. =((

7 Nov marks it. It's next next week only. I'm on leave on that day. N what can i do on that day?
Stone and rot. Today, no1's around to dota. The reason why i dota, is to forget you. Nights will b longer without you. But.. every friday and saturday night, aren't they meaningful in memory??

From "New Moon":
The physical evidence was the most insignificant part of the equation.

Forget you is impossible with all the things given to you physically.
=(
I dunno how.
This entry took 1 hour.
Seems like each word took a toll on me to punch.

Vammie, wake up~